HEAVEN (love story part 1)

It was an exquisite walk but I was more terrified than excited to talk with her for the first time. Although it was just a common darkness in the sky, I could sense the stars getting brighter in her presence as we silently gazed through the night. I could feel the colossal presence of happiness, maybe it was just the chill in the breeze perhaps drifting through faraway carrying the messages of azure deeps and greenest peaks that was just starting to replace the warm air of CST (Pling), or maybe the view from the helipad of striking lights in the plain merging with the starry sky or maybe it was just adrenaline of meeting her for the first time. We had hardly exchange enough words to know each other completely yet there was a presence of an affirmative vive that was screaming of the infinity possibilities. 

Almost an hour had gone by and the time was compelling me to bring a moral topic into conversation, perhaps just to keep a worthy first impression. “Do you believe in love?” shit, there was no better way to ruin the conversation and till date I wonder did I even ask that. The aura of the starry night, chilly wind and the glitters of the plain slowly faded except for the adrenaline as the silence extended. I started to wonder out of so many possibilities of combination of words to form a question, was that the best I could do? The silence was long enough for me to start thinking and strategizing the formation of various rugs of ladder to come out of the ditch in which the question pushed me into. Before the second question I started repeating it several time in my head and an entirely different conversation had already started inside. “Konita (I am not sure)”, amongst the confusion in my head she responded to the stupid question. 

I felt as if waking up from a nightmare and reality was just replacing my stupid head. I was firm that the second question won’t be a stupid one but before I could even frame one, her vengeance for the first question was served, “Do you?”

Amongst the thought of the stupidity of the question and the ladder of second question, I didn’t realize the pores that question could open until it was my turn to response. Sequence of memories busted in my wits before I could answer and it wasn’t pleasant. Series of images ran right before my eyes and although I responded entirely different thing my heart meekly whispered, ‘I was looking the heaven to fall, maybe I got it all wrong.’.... a song to all the people who weren’t heaven.

HEAVEN

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I was looking for the heaven fall

May be I got it all wrong

I was looking for the stars to fall

May be I got it all wrong

I don’t wanna dance in the dark like you want me to

I don’t wanna be your namkhai nidup

You can do whatever you wanna do

Tashi Delek to you too

As I said…. I was looking…

May be you are just an ordinary girl

Trying to find way through the night

Broke my heart into pieces

And you ask me ‘am I alright?’

As I said…. I was looking…

Rakhdhina euta pani timro samjana

Manama basney gar theo bhaneyra

Building my home place full of sand

Go where ever you wanna go, London to Thailand

As I said…. I was looking…